A fleeting glimpse at the best of me

I had a strange feeling tonight. And I'm not quite sure I can explain it fully. I was driving away from the gym, and I just had this undeniable feeling of being me again. And it wasn't until I felt that feeling that I was even aware just how much that feeling had been eluding me lately. I haven't been walking around thinking "Gosh, I don't feel like myself." But suddenly I was filled up with this, I don't know, sense of "being me."

I realize I am carrying a great deal of stress right now. And it definitely isn't gone at the moment. But over the weekend I moved. And other than the actual moving day which was hectic as hell I had a nice weekend... very much thanks to a supportive friend and roommate. And I started to feel settled. I can almost... almost... see a light at the end of this particular tunnel.

Then Monday I started my new routine of commuting from Cary. It is further, but it forces me to take my gym clothes with me and go to the gym directly after work. This does a couple things... first of all, I can't get home and think "oh, I will lay down and nap instead of changing clothes and going to the gym." Secondly, it gives traffic a chance to die down before I drive home. Both great things!

So last night I went to a class at 5:30pm after work. And I had so many people hug me and seemed so happy to see me. It just made my day. I hadn't realized how my lack of being at the gym regularly had been noticed.  A friend said how the people at the gym... we are like a little family. And I felt part of that last night. I actually felt all warm and fuzzy inside.

Then tonight, due to encouragement from the teacher on Facebook, I stopped in a spinning class for 15 minutes before going and teaching in the hot yoga room. And I had 10 people show up. A normal class is about 5 people. We were bursting at the seams in that room. And that was pretty darned fun for me.

So I was driving away, and it just felt somehow like finding this new routine, and getting back to my physical activity... I was finding my way back to me just a little bit. The feeling was fleeting, but it was real. And it is a reminder to me to keep moving forward. And that the gym truly is a place that brings out the best of me. :)